Peom to go along with emptiness

Posted by Dianeism , Sunday, December 12, 2010 4:24 PM

Emptiness

I look around at the passers by, smile and get nothing.
Desperately searching, waiting for something.
A blank stare.
People who don’t care.
The gravitation towards instant gratification.
A robot in motion.
Fulfilling it’s own notion.
With no regard for the rest.
You will definitely fail your test.
The satisfying of every urge.
The evil within yourself will emerge.
Neglecting to act.
Will be the death of you in fact.
Hello fallow.
Goodbye tomorrow.

Emptiness

Posted by Dianeism 4:10 PM

It's an eerie thing to walk amongst strangers sometimes. People you will never get to know. Their stories will remain a mystery, which always makes me sad. I've noticed that as I've gotten older, the more and more people won't look you in the eye. I am guilty of this as well, but if we pretend that each other are not there, then we loose a very real connection with the world and each other. It is easy to label a stranger as a bad driver or a moody customer, but this makes them loose other titles that you don't know anything about. The moody customer may have recently been titled widower. If you think of everyone as being very complex, your connection will come to life. People are loosing a sense of responsibility to others. The responsibility to let someone get in front of them on the highway or if someone is being bullied to stop it from happening. If you take responsibility for yourself and others, you are linking the chains of change. You help someone and others follow suit. Bad behavior is contagious and so is good. The more we ignore each other, the more empty we become.

A poem to go along with selfishness

Posted by Dianeism , Saturday, November 13, 2010 7:42 AM

Sell Fish

It’s worth every penny to not be penniless.

Do whatever it takes, take whatever you can get.

Selling fish was his best bet.

Among the market, he charmed with his banter.

People flooded in with a canter.

He won’t do this, he won’t do that.

But, he will carry the fish until it breaks his back.

He juggled the fish in the air with a fake smile and cold scaly hands.

He gets mad when anyone ruins his plans.

It wasn’t just the money he craved, but the attention he was paid.

He would never stop selling fish because he doesn’t know how to be self-less.

The vendor across the street began to steal his thunder.

No longer did his fans reel in for hunger.

Now he’s broke and hooked into a blunder.

His head slumped down returning to his forgotten life with his tail tucked under.

Selfishness

Posted by Dianeism 7:26 AM

Everyone is guilty of it, sometimes more than others. It's so easy to be selfish, that's why it's so bad. It's easier to do what you want than it is to do what someone else asks of you. But, the more and more you do what you want, the more and more others get disappointed in you. In response, you'll get this unsettling feeling. The more happy you try to make yourself with doing what you want, the more unhappy you will feel, which you may not even realize. As others notice this inevitable action in you, they will then expect it and in return you will continue to live up to their expectations. And of course the opposite is true, that if you only do what others want, then they will walk all over you. One of the hardest things in life to juggle is balance. And just like a person with an addiction (you do have have an addiction to pleasing yourself only or being a people pleaser) you first must realize you have a problem, then take baby steps to correcting it when you see you are falling back on bad habits. Think of yourself as a service to the wants and needs of others and your own and maybe that will help you tip the scale.

My Philosophies

Posted by Dianeism , Thursday, November 4, 2010 2:36 PM

1. Giving up means you’ll never get where your going.

2. Sometimes we build walls to see if anyone cares enough to break them.

3. You are the way you are because that’s the way you grew up.

4. One of the hardest parts about chasing your dreams is finding the courage
to do it.

5. Fame dies with out of sight out of mind, money dies when you are buried, but
love is never ending.

6. Everybody is searching for who they are and what they believe in.

7. If God has given you a gift, you cannot claim it as your own because it was
a gift from HIM.

8. Relationships are like prison you’re locked up and marriage is throwing away
the key, so you’d better find someone that you can stand for a life
sentence.

9. Be who you are, but always strive to be the better version of yourself.

10. The hardest thing in life to juggle is balance.

11. You can’t ever win if you keep finding ways to fail.

12. Peace comes from realizing that we’re not so different after all.

A poem to go along with humbled

Posted by Dianeism , Monday, September 6, 2010 11:31 AM

Humbled

Humanity has mumbled
Stands up when fumbled
While up in the air
The head in the clouds
Disaster tumbled.

The mess in a heap and bundle
Packaged to serve your grumble
Ashamed with your tail between your legs
Your head descending
Into an un-blinded jumble.

Arrogance is crumbled
By means of humility rumble
Feet firmly on dirt
Body on the ground
To keep you humble.

Humbled

Posted by Dianeism 11:14 AM

I have come to the conclusion over the years that being humbled by things that go wrong is a very good thing. Everyone needs to be knocked back down to earth sometimes. Anytime my head gets big about this or that, something always happens that makes me realize that I have no reason to be arrogant. Hopefully, I will always be able to see the cause and effect of the things I do, think, and say. No one likes a cocky, arrogant, know-it-all. In fact, cockyness and arrogance get on my nerves like no other personality trait. I wonder though, for those who are cocky and arrogant, their heads are so high up in the clouds, they can't come down to earth to see themselves for what they are. Or they do see and just don't care. I'm sure they notice the eye rolls in their direction. Anytime I notice any of those traits in myself, I try to correct it. The know-it-all thing is my weakness, but since I know that sometimes I "know-it-all" I try to take other people's opinions into account because I love hearing other people's perspectives. And I do admit when I'm wrong. I am a work in progress, always striving to be a better person and sometimes striving for the impossible perfection.

The American Dream

Posted by Dianeism , Sunday, August 15, 2010 6:06 PM

The American Dream

Big house.
Nice spouse.
Fancy car.
That isn’t too far.
It’s within our reach.
And what society will preach.
Entertainment to escape.
Turns the mind into a different shape.
Is it what we truly want?
To shamelessly flaunt.
Scares the hell out of me.
To become what has been instilled to be.
Dare to be broke.
Share with an honest foke.
Your true dreams come true.
When you truly pursue.
I don’t mean to scare.
But The American Dream may become your worst nightmare.

Eat. Pray. Love the book

Posted by Dianeism 6:03 PM

I read your book and just saw the movie and it seems that I too have disappeared into not only a significant other (a relationship that lasted 7 years) but also into a life that was comfortable. I didn’t piece it together until I saw the movie that God’s message through your story is to eat (for the soul), pray (for peace of mind), and love (to fulfill the heart). These things are the only things that truly matter in this world. I am writing a similar story to yours. It’s about a spiritual revolution within yourself. I started writing it last August 2009 before I read your book and saw the movie. I started writing it before me and my boyfriend broke up and realized that my story, Awaken, turned out to be my own awakening. I have always been pretty close to God, but sometimes I get lazy and need something to re-ignite my spirit. Needless to say, I am awake. After the break up, I felt I needed a change in my life and to actually start living it and make life happen instead of letting it happen to me. As Americans I think we let our freedom rot away and disintegrate into mindless entertainment so we can escape from the craziness. I hope that your story helps people realize that the American dream can sometimes be a nightmare. People worry too much about what they are expected to have and want instead of what will challenge them and make them grow, which is why people are after the American dream as a substitute for their individual dream. My dream is to inspire people with my words as you have. And I just wanted to say thank you for sharing your very deep personal story with the world. I hope that you have opened people’s minds and hearts to a new and better life. I’m glad that as soon as you let God into your life, everything you knew changed for the better. I admire you for having the guts to make a change and do the work.

A poem to go along with Lost

Posted by Dianeism , Tuesday, August 3, 2010 4:40 PM

Dark Angel

Where did you go, you are so far gone.
To follow the emptiness to fulfill the feeling you haven't felt in so long.

Like magic you disappeared into bitter, brittle, and broken.
It's been too long since we've spoken.
Do you speak to hear yourself speak?
Do you weep to hear yourself weep?

You use to be bright, but the world has turned you black.
Now there is only one way to come back.

Bring a smile from a foe or friend.
Then you'll be happy while I mend.

I'll turn your frown to a smile.
While you follow the Nile.
Your ugly into beautiful.
As long as your life is dutiful.

I'll rid your devils as I re-ignite the spark.
And light up your dark.

I'll fix your broken.

Lost

Posted by Dianeism 4:28 PM

It always makes me sad when someone I know goes from a believer to non-believer. So sad that I've even cried about it. Some have stopped being believers in themselves and in God. Most of the people I meet that have gotten "lost" over time seem to yearn for something more, but can't seem to find "it", whatever it maybe. Believing is a gift and I think God really only reveals himself to those who don't need proof. I also know non-believers who act more Christian than actual Christians. In my opinion, non-believers aren't doomed for hell. I don't think God believes in black and white(hell-black/heaven-white) which is what purgatory is for. For all the shades of gray. All I can do to help shed some light is be the best example that I can be, I can't change people's minds, but I can plant a seed. Hopefully it will grow.

A poem to go along with Magic

Posted by Dianeism , Tuesday, July 20, 2010 6:22 PM

Magic

This is between us two.
I’ve cast a spell on you.
The sparks have shot up like fireworks.
The energy sits heavy between us like a bubbling cauldron

I’m restless in your presence and suddenly the words escape me.
My motions follow yours
The attraction overflows.
I am inspired and admired.
Surprised and comfortable.
A connection I know what your thinking
An inspection of everything you.

No tricks or illusions.
Just magical conclusions.

Magic

Posted by Dianeism 6:01 PM

I do believe in magic, not necessarily the card tricks or the illusions, but that the impossible can be possible. Of course it is hard to entertain the idea that magic and mystery are logical or realistic. However, there are things that cannot be explained. UFO sightings are prime examples of that and I myself have seen strange things in the sky that do not look like helicopters or planes. Miracles happen all the time too, I've read about them and witnessed some things in my life that without a doubt can not be explained by logic. The logical minded people can argue around any of the mysterious things that happen, but in truth the world is not meant to be 100% logical, emotional, or explainable. It supposed to be a mixture of emotional and logical and an equal happy balance. As long as the emotional people recognize the fact they could be wrong and vice versa for the logical minded. The simple fact that we are even here on earth is a miracle. I also consider the fact that people can fall in love and stay in love for 50 years a miracle...we all know that the opposite sex ain't so easy to live with sometimes. Take it from my great Italian immigrant grandmother who asked for a divorce from her husband of like 50 years on their anniversary haha (they didn't get divorced). Maybe I'm just a big kid still and like to dream, but sometimes dreams are more interesting than reality.

A peom to go along with Truth

Posted by Dianeism , Thursday, July 1, 2010 3:02 PM

Truth

The things you say are the price you pay for the things you do and don’t.

So stop, listen, feel, and think when you think others won’t.

Words only have meaning when they are put into action, until then they never give or take any satisfaction.

So unless you want a positive reaction,
Do what you say, say what you feel and wait for retaliation.

If there is no regurgitation, resist the force of gravitation,
because without words and action the meaning of the attraction remains to be fiction.

Truth

Posted by Dianeism 2:42 PM

Why is the truth so hard sometimes? It can be hard to admit, easy to realize, and hard to come by. I always try to be truthful to myself and to others, but sometimes I catch myself lying in order to keep from realizing the truth. I suppose that is human nature, but at least I always feel guilty about lying and usually tell the truth. Writer's have been known to be truth tellers, but I think that is only when it comes to everyone but themselves. Everyone does lie though, even if they are "white" lies so I suppose we shouldn't feel to bad about it, unless it hurts someone in the long run. I think people lie for a million different reasons: self-gain, manipulation, and to keep themselves out of tribulation. The only semi-good reason to lie is if you think that the truth will really hurt someone. I mean sometimes the truth is imperative even if it does hurt someone, you use your judgment on that call. Honesty is usually the best policy, however, I am a firm believer that bluntness doesn't always work on some people. I think it is best to beat around the bush, that way you are being honest with a side of sensitivity to their feelings. The best guidance for others when trying to get them to realize the truth is to ask probing questions that will get them to enlighten themselves. People don't learn by being told or shown when it comes to life decisions. They learn by their mistakes and self-awareness of why they do the things they do. That can be hard to figure out, but if you spend some alone time with yourself and really ask yourself why, you will eventually come up with the answer.

A poem to go along with Panic!

Posted by Dianeism , Wednesday, June 23, 2010 7:13 PM

Panic

Feeling out of control takes it’s toll.
My mind rushing forward.
And my body implanted toward.
Heading down fears tunnel
Into a tornadic funnel
Everythings getting taller
And I’m shrinking smaller
I completely give in and let the fear take over.
I tremble
I fumble
I shake
And crumble.

Panic!

Posted by Dianeism 6:49 PM

My panic attacks have finally subsided. After months of feeling anxious all the time, my nerves feel calm. I've read that panic attacks are one of the most frighting things humans can go through, well besides a near death experience. It feels like I'm actually loosing my mind. My whole body shakes and my mind feels like it's moving forward while I'm standing still. It gets triggered by things that I already fear like heights and large cities. My mind shuts down and I can't function, which is why it has become difficult for me to drive through big cities. But, I try to push through by repeating that I won't let fear control me. Its a strange thing though, I used to drive through Atlanta and fly in planes with no problem, then all of a sudden I started freaking out. I think that because there has been a lot of changes in my life I've kind of been thrown into a whirlwind and am staggering around trying to catch my breath. If I could give advice to anyone who gets them, it's keep pushing yourself to face your fear and confront the reasons for the attacks and they will get better. If you submit to them and pull yourself from whatever situation is making you anxious, you'll never get over it. It's really hard to do and I was scared the whole time, but every time I live through it I think what the hell is the big deal? I'm hopeful though that one day panic attacks will be a distant memory. Until then, I'm just going to grip on to whatever stands still while the whirlwind whips around me.

Another poem

Posted by Dianeism , Friday, June 11, 2010 2:08 PM

HIS SIN LIES WITHIN

He is a risk taker, an opportunity maker, a world shaker, and probably a bad love maker.

Spoiled beyond belief and often considered more important than he actually is, he has never been a giver, but always a taker.

He is used to being treated with respect, by submission, and reacts to disrespect with corruption.

As he hoards in the weak, he hungers for mass quantities of sick consumption.
Perhaps he is a diplomat, who is very precise, but mostly naughty, and pretends to be nice.

While he is obsessed with money, and keeping himself in tact, the world around him is in shambles.

His interest are not in the simple things in life, rather, he’d choose to spend his time in a pool of riches as he gambles.

Warm-hearted, generous, caring, and organized, he is not, as he runs everyone ragged, their minds become absorbed in wicked and wretched mental states.

Following his desire to the very core of his existence, he treats everything with neglect, including his wife who stays at home and waits.

Giving in to temptation, he is a lustful love faker, caught red-handed.
Trying to explain this tall tale with his diplomatic solution he finds himself stranded.

The victim of adultery, with the symbol of love in her hand, she’s not buying it for what she has detected.

We can not learn from his words, but we can learn from his actions, the cost of living for the moment is much higher than expected.

937 I miss you....

Posted by Dianeism 1:47 PM

So, starting last spring 2009 I started seeing these numbers 937 every single day. Whether it was time, money, phone numbers, license plates, upc codes on products, or Jerseys standing next to each other at a football game, they sought out my retina. It really freaked me out. I started telling people about it and of course they thought I was crazy, but then they started to notice that I saw it too. This went on for months and months before I did anything about it. I started researching what the numbers meant individually and this is what I found:

9

Represents accomplishment and success to achieve an influence over circumstance, intellectual power, inventiveness, positive influential difference. The spiritual meaning is Finality or judgment, completeness, and end of all things.

3

Means magic, intuition, expression, versatility, joy of creation, reward and success. The spiritual meaning is personal completeness, holy trinity, resurrection of christ, and birth/life/death.

7
Means mystery, activation of imagination, conscious thought, awareness, and scholarly activities. The spiritual meaning is God's perfection.

After I researched what these numbers meant, I stopped seeing them everyday, which is why I miss them. However, I did see the number 5 times this past Tuesday. I'm not 100% sure as to why I see them, but it is most definitely strange!

This one speaks for itself

Posted by Dianeism , Friday, June 4, 2010 4:00 PM

Loving a rag doll

Your perfect in every way.
Perfect hair, perfect mouth, perfect body, but you’ve lost your heart today.

It’s on your sleeve, showing your discontent by not being in your body.

Your empty glance makes way for your lifeless touch.

As I love and hug my rag doll it goes limp in my arms.

I try and try and get no response.

Before you know it, the perfect doll isn’t so perfect anymore.

The hair is frayed, the mouth droops, and the body tattered.
And my heart is shattered.

But it’s not your fault you wear your heart on your sleeve and I can see where it is.

I just want it repaired I don’t care how it is his.

Forgive and forget the heart will reawaken, it will be repaired by someone else’s taken.

A poem to go along with Education for Dummies

Posted by Dianeism , Thursday, May 27, 2010 5:14 PM

The Education Sanction
Kindergarten, first, second, second, third
Two times in second was considered absurd
The first grade was the worst experience of all
The teacher treated me as if I couldn’t even crawl

With her dis-encouraging words, she poked fun
Anytime she called my name my body became numb
My anxiety increased by three times three
But not even my parents could see
I had a learning disability

Confused why the girls and boys attention in class did not equate
By the time I received help it was already too late
They convinced the inconvincible that I didn’t have what it takes
Learning to be quiet is the personality I began to fake

My peers also helped my spirit dwindle
They made my life be the ultimate symbol
Focusing on them, I lost focus in school
I never realized how kids could be so cruel

Sometimes I felt like I shouldn’t even try
Some went above and beyond, some were mediocre, that I can not deny
But, maybe they would have tried harder if I was a different gender
If more effort was made, maybe I would not have surrendered, at this age your life is very tender, it shaped who I am, a non-defender

Receiving outside intervention by someone so ignorant
I would have rather gotten my advice from an infant
Prescribed pill after pill I did not have a say
A bad reaction was soon on its way
I can not express in the way that I reacted
Let’s just say you don’t want a re-enactment

Attacked by the mind something was not right
The pill popping ended in a fight
After explaining to my parents that I did what I could
They let me be free, as they should
All this at the age of seven
Third, fourth, and fifth felt like heaven

The hardest part was over, but a knew problem had just begun
School put pressure on me to only be beautiful and for my intelligence to equal none
Afraid to speak for fear of not sounding smart
I wander if I would feel this way if I didn’t have a wrong start

What I needed then was not given
This is now what makes me driven
Now that I am in college I can never know enough
Getting over this is going to be tough

Fixing my voice and my confidence I’ve rose to the challenge, thanks to this experience I’ve grown stronger
No one can tell me what I can and can’t do any longer
I hope that others will learn from the moral of my story
Take it all in and see all its glory

Here is the answer to the question of the educator
The future lies within you, enrich lives, until more money is put in the educational system by the legislature
Until then, I will see you later
For those of you who made me a non-believer do me a favor

Pay attention the Board of Education; I’ve got a message, so listen to what’s in store
From now on I will spread my wings and soar
I will do the unthinkable until you gasp and hit the floor
No longer will I be ignored and treated like a chore
I am a woman hear my roar

Education for Dummies

Posted by Dianeism 5:09 PM

D is for Dummy and F is for failure, these are the grades I came to know well while in school. While I have a few bones to pick with the Educational System, I do want to say that being a teacher is such a respectable and underpaid profession. I’ve had so many teachers over the years that really cared and made a huge difference in my learning life. I thank them all for that. It must be so rewarding to finally see that light bulb go off. Having stated that, my difficulties in school started in the second grade. I was labeled LD (learning disabled) and was sent to LD classrooms where kids misbehaved from lack of self-esteem about their place in modern academia. This label is so detrimental to the delicate minds of young children. It has a negative connotation and we got made fun of for our “below average” grades. I was given different pills for dealing with my concentration problem and depression pills to deal with the ridicule I undertook in school and the self-esteem loss for feeling stupid in comparison to the other kids.

You are setting children up for failure when you label them an LD. They won’t put much importance on education and depending on their nature, they just might simply give up. I gave up which is why I spent most of my life trying to catch up to everyone else. What I’ve learned now is that Attention Deficit Disorder, in my case, is code for creativity. My mind wandered during class because I have an imagination and introspective mind. I may have never made good grades, but it took spending 50 G’s at Clemson to realize that I am smart. Just not in the way that the educational system measures it. I realize life isn’t fair, but what if we could change the way we see academics and grades. What if we removed D’s and F’s from the grading scale? What if we tailored different programs in the education systems that spoke to kids with different types of smarts. I realize every child needs the basics, but will I EVER need to know what the square root of four is? No, probably not and at least I haven’t yet and honestly who cares! I’m not a mathematician and never will be. You can’t force a square peg in a round whole.

Art classes are electives, which makes it seem like they are less important. I think if your artistic, then in high school you need to be exploring that avenue rather then taking the wasteful chemistry class. I know there are private schools for these types of things, but honestly who has the money for that sort of thing. We rely on the government to make such decisions and so far they’ve been mute.

It was so difficult growing up with a learning disorder. Not only did I experience some traumatic experiences, like boys in the LD classes grabbing my chest with my hands tied around my back, but also I rebelled and got angry because of it. It seemed like everyone was working against me. I even had an authority figure tell my mother I shouldn’t go to college due to my 8th grade writing capabilities at the age of 18. I wasn’t really sure if I’d ever go to college or amount to much because of all of this. I have since then come to my senses, but it’s because I have a lot of support and insight. Had I not, who knows where I’d be. The future is the most important thing to protect and if we don’t protect the minds of children who face issues like this, then your future congressman could be sitting in jail right now because he/she never saw his/her own potential.

Educational reform is scary and cost money, but the cost of losing one brilliant mind in a crowd is higher than any penny spent.

A poem to go along with Normalcy

Posted by Dianeism , Wednesday, May 19, 2010 4:03 PM

Social Construction

From ten inches to five feet one images in images out
Even if they are unfair I’m not supposed to pout
Taking them in one by one
By age seven the big picture is done

Everyone tells me what’s right what’s wrong
Finally I learn what everyone else has known all along
Somewhere between four feet five inches to five feet long my identity was gone
Torn apart by the environments song

During this time rebellion was inevitable
Although in some ways regrettable
Holding me back, I went down while I fought
Soon, conforming began to be what I sought

An empty structure hollow inside
In no one could I confide
Striving and Starving for something more
Shallow everything seemed, obsessing over all the glitz and glamour

Socially constructed it took hard work to un-break the broken, my shield is re-covering
Never again will I be affected by societal smothering

Constructed in a robotic function
Programming social re-construction

Normalcy

Posted by Dianeism 3:56 PM

Good ole’ Webster tells us that the definition of normal is “Ordinary, average, usual; having average intelligence”, but I disagree with the definition. No one person is ordinary everyone is original. Sometimes if you feel like your life is boring you have to spice things up a bit and you might consider doing something “abnormal”. If you think about everyone you know most of them have some kind of weird tendancy that they do or say. Some of your friends may mumble to himself or herself, or say really random things that don't make sense and carry on conversations in their sleep. To me these things and things like these are not abnormal. They are the characteristics that make people unique.

If everyone acted the same life would be quite boring. I grew up in a crazy family, we’re loud, we talk about random things, and we probably don’t make sense to a lot of people. I guess that is why I have a different definition of normal. Ok there are some characteristics that everyone considers abnormal, but those are mostly things that freak people out. For example, someone who hides in the bushes and jumps out at people because they like hearing people scream. Now that is abnormal and scary, but everyone has something weird up their sleeve and if it is not visible it is hiding in their closet. All you have to do to open the flood gate, make them feel comfortable, get to know them and the truth comes out. There are probably some people that think that they are “normal” people, but I guarantee if they asked one of their best friends if they do anything abnormal, the answer would hash up some dirt. I guess the fact that we are all abnormal gives us a sense of normalcy. So my definition of normalcy is in fact abnormal.

A poem to go along with God need I say more

Posted by Dianeism , Saturday, May 15, 2010 11:26 AM

Come back to me

When you get busy just stop and come back to me.
When you do, you will see that you will share peace with me.
By doing good for others you will feel close to me.
You will learn that whatever will be will be.
Everyday you must pray with me.
When things go wrong you must stay with me.
You must know you are free because of me.
And these are the things that will help you come back to me.

God....need I say more...oh wait yes I will!

Posted by Dianeism 10:47 AM

First I'd like to say that I don't know everything. I've simply pondered life and God and have come to some conclusions based on my experiences. All of it is subject to change based on future conclusions and persuasions. It doesn't even matter what religion I am, but I am a christian. Here is what I've found:
There IS a GOD. He's for real alright and winked at me too. But, I look around at how beautiful things are and wonder how people don't believe. Yes, there is ugly here too, but this is a part of life and why its not called heaven. Everything here was made for you its unbelievably hard to think it was all just an accident. Everything just so happened to fall into place. Not just the formation of the earth, but the perfect way in which our bodies function and heal themselves. Oxygen made for us to breathe, food to nourish, water the gas that ignites the engine, and procreation that helps sustain life on earth. These were all on purpose. If your argument is why not it be an accident it's because no accidence are this perfect. Not to say that life is perfect because bad things happen, but everything we need is here. If it's not at your finger tips then try and go get it or pray for it. The power of prayer is greater than most people think. I've seen it in action.
About tragedy and the negative, those things have a purpose too. Whether its to make you stronger, smarter, better, challenge you, build character, or strengthen your relationship with God. Everyone has a cross to bare, I think it's how you get to heaven. You pay for your sins in the bad things that happen to you, things that you can't pay for in a monetary amount.
Why'd he create us? I don't know boredom? Love? I can't answer that only ponder, but when I think about why my parents created me, it was out of love and boredom and oh yeah it felt good too haha. I'm just glad I wasn't there to witness...ew (sorry mom and dad had to put that in there).
I do believe that Jesus was a prophet. I think God knew that people before Jesus were lost, so he provided someone to show the way. But, I don't think that Jesus was the only prophet sent from God. He died for the sins of man because the greatest way to show love is sacrafice. His main objective while down here was to teach us to love and help others no matter their religion, race, and background of each individual. We were ALL and I do mean All made by him. Even the grumpiest of grumpy, mean and frigid. Maybe by showing some kindness and love to even the grumpy can turn them into the opposite. We need to lead by example which is harder to do then it sounds. So, if you try everyday to do the best you can I think you'll be OK.
Just as God has chosen to relate to Christians with Jesus, I think he has chosen to relate to others of different religions in different ways as well. Every culture, country, and individual is unique. Just like everyone speaks in different languages, eat different foods, pray in different ways, they relate to God in different ways too. As long as your God believes in doing the righteous and loving thing, then he is my God too. No matter the religion. But, you HAVE to work on your relationship with God. If you never think about him, pray to him, visit him, he won't know you. If there is one person you want to know you, it's him because believe me you want to be with him in paradise. And if your not sure if he's real, why take the risk? Maybe if you try and work on building a relationship with him you'll find that he was there all along.
Sometimes I wonder if purgatory was made for the not so good, but not too bad people. I meant that would be fair right? Think about the people before Christ. Would it be fair to send them all the Hell? God is all about some fairness and equality and I really don't think he would do that. I think that purgatory is here on earth. The ghosts that walk among us trapped between heaven and hell. They have to be prayed out and do some soul searching/God reparation to go up and disregard to go down. I don't necessary think it's predetermined when your made what will happen to your soul. Good souls have gone bad, and bad souls gone good. I think nature/nurture aids you in your destiny. And of course free will and resisting temptation strengthens your relationship with God.
I think that God is the most important person in relationships between men and women too. If you both as individuals have a good relationship with God and you also have one together, usually you'll last forever. Unless there isn't love involved. I don't believe that one person in the relationship should submit to the other. You both submit to each other. God made men and women equal. Both to love and die for each other, make decisions together, no one person with the final say.
Ok I think that covers everything. Once again I don't know-it-all, but this is all I know. Please enlighten me on your thoughts as you reply. They are welcome as long as they are civil.

Oh yeah one more thing, to the question of dogs or cats, I'd say dogs because dog spelled backwards is God. haha Just kidding I love cats equally for their differences. I actually think its funny because dogs have always been considered man's best friend and that is what God is to man too.

A poem to go along with Fair Game :)

Posted by Dianeism , Thursday, May 13, 2010 7:00 PM

Nate the Snake

Nate the snake lives life as a fake.
He breaks his dates while they fall for his traits.
You wait and wait for him to awake, but he never awakes and it makes you irrate.
Since Nate loves to rake in his bait, he'll take and take until it's to late.
For goodness sake, he'll never find a mate because Nate's fate is based on his mistakes.
So don't wait for Nate because based on his traits all it will bring is aches and heartbreaks.

Fair Game

Posted by Dianeism 6:41 PM

When the hotness of the summer hits the surface, the layers of clothes peal off, outdoor activities become a must, and it also seems to bring passion and new relationships into people’s lives. I don’t know why, but it seems like during the warm months people’s hormones seem to awaken from a winter slumber. When we come to the end of our warm day’s, people scramble to find someone to hibernate with over the cold winter nights. Some people might disagree with me, but dating really is a game. Now, I am not saying hurting people’s feelings is cool because it’s not, but most of us have led at least someone on in our lives or done something to someone that we wouldn’t want done to ourselves. We all make mistakes and do things we shouldn’t so in the dating game people’s feelings are bound to get hurt. So if you don’t want to get hurt just don’t enter into the dating game, which is of course impossible. There are people who do maliciously try to hurt other people and those people were just born in the bellows of a heartless hell. However, the majority of people are those who don’t mean to be hurtful. Even if we don’t want to hurt someone on purpose we still receive bad karma in one way or another. Life can be so confusing and most of us don’t know what we want, that is why we make mistakes.
I am not a fan of leading on people and people should not do it, but since mistakes are inevitable the person being led on should recognize it and move on. If you are not sure how to tell if you are being led on, here is how to know. If your crush says one thing and does another or does one thing and says another, most of the time that means they are confused and do not know what they want. Get out while you can if you are in this situation because most of the time you will get hurt. One of the only ways to make the person who is leading you on realize what they want is to leave them alone. Some might call this playing hard to get, but that is exactly what they have been doing to you so go for it. If the person who leads you on goes about their business and stops bothering you, its time to move on. Or the string puller might realize what he or she wants when your gone and come after you. Or the they might come back to you, then leave you again and rinse and repeat. These people are still confused and you should tell them to take a hike and make them chase you a little. Most people like when someone shows less interest in them so they can figure out ways to make you like them again. This is the reason dating is called a game, because someone will finish first in everyone’s race its only a matter of time. I plan on enjoying it while it lasts because your only young once. I have my whole life to live with a ball and chain. Once your in a relationship your locked up and marriage is throwing away the key, so you'd better find someone you can stand for a life sentence!
Dating fopauxs are tricky and different advice should be given based on individual instances. Everyone should be cautious when it comes to other people’s feelings, but just remember everyone makes mistakes.