Dianeisms

Panic!

Posted by Dianeism , Wednesday, June 23, 2010 6:49 PM

My panic attacks have finally subsided. After months of feeling anxious all the time, my nerves feel calm. I've read that panic attacks are one of the most frighting things humans can go through, well besides a near death experience. It feels like I'm actually loosing my mind. My whole body shakes and my mind feels like it's moving forward while I'm standing still. It gets triggered by things that I already fear like heights and large cities. My mind shuts down and I can't function, which is why it has become difficult for me to drive through big cities. But, I try to push through by repeating that I won't let fear control me. Its a strange thing though, I used to drive through Atlanta and fly in planes with no problem, then all of a sudden I started freaking out. I think that because there has been a lot of changes in my life I've kind of been thrown into a whirlwind and am staggering around trying to catch my breath. If I could give advice to anyone who gets them, it's keep pushing yourself to face your fear and confront the reasons for the attacks and they will get better. If you submit to them and pull yourself from whatever situation is making you anxious, you'll never get over it. It's really hard to do and I was scared the whole time, but every time I live through it I think what the hell is the big deal? I'm hopeful though that one day panic attacks will be a distant memory. Until then, I'm just going to grip on to whatever stands still while the whirlwind whips around me.